Demi Lovato says drugs almost ‘killed’ her and also ‘saved her life’ when she was feeling suicidal… as she opens up about the ‘destructive coping mechanism’ in raw new interview
Demi Lovato says that using drugs ‘almost killed’ her while also helping ‘save’ her life when she was dealing with suicidal thoughts.
The pop star, 28, talked about her complicated relationship with substance abuse during an upcoming appearance on Diane Guerrero’s podcast Yeah No, I’m Not OK, telling the Orange Is The New Black actress drugs served as a ‘destructive coping mechanism’ for her.
‘In the same way [drug use] almost killed me, it saved my life at times, because there were times that I dealt with suicidal ideations,’ the Sober singer explained, saying it gave her a distraction from her emotional anguish.
‘I believe I turned to those coping mechanisms because I genuinely was in so much pain that I didn’t want to die and I didn’t know what else to do,’ she went on, per E! News.
Complicated: Demi Lovato opened up about how she used drugs as a ‘coping mechanism’ for all the pain she was enduring before getting sober. She admitted addiction almost ‘killed’ her while also helping ‘save her life’ by distracting her from suicidal thoughts
But Demi had a wake-up call when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience which left the star with permanent brain damage.
She’s since developed new ways to cope during her recovery, saying she now has ‘other tools and other resources’ to help, noting ‘I did the best that I could at times.’
‘I know how else to deal and how else to cope so I don’t have to resort to those behaviors again,’ she continued.
The former Disney Channel star also told Diana why she is so open about her past struggles, saying: ‘I would look at people in the media and I would just compare myself — not feel good enough, not feel thin enough — and wonder how it was that these people were living lives that seemed so perfect but yet I was in so much pain.’
Scary: Demi had a wake-up call when she overdosed in 2018, a near-death experience which left the star with permanent brain damage
Happy place: She’s since developed new ways to cope during her recovery, saying she now has ‘other tools and other resources’ to help, noting ‘I did the best that I could at times’
‘And when I got into the spotlight, I was like, ‘Oh, it’s not perfect here, nobody has a perfect life, it just looks that way.’
Because of that, Demi said she’s keen on tearing down the ‘facade for Hollywood.’
‘I’ve tried on many identities over the years,’ she said.
‘The sexy feminine pop star that I felt like people wanted me to be or the poster child for recovery. And now I’m embracing the fact that my lack of commitment to any one identity isn’t a lack of commitment. It’s just an openness to continue to evolve.’
Demi will be pouring even more of her heart out in her upcoming docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which will premiere on March 23rd.
Facade: The former Disney Channel star said she’s baring her soul so others can see that no one in Hollywood is as ‘perfect’ as they seem from afar. She’s seen at the 20187 Billboard Music Awards above
Open book: Demi will be pouring even more of her heart out in her upcoming docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With The Devil, which will premiere on March 23rd
In a trailer for the piece, she admitted she ‘wouldn’t change a thing’ about her rocky road to sobriety.
‘Everything had to happen in order for me to learn the lessons that I learned,’ Lovato said.
‘It was a painful journey, and I look back and sometimes I get sad when I think of the pain that I had to endure to overcome what I have, but I don’t regret anything.’
‘I’m so proud of the person I am today,’ she continued.
‘And I’m so proud that people get to see it in this documentary and I couldn’t be more grateful that I had someone by my side.’
Pride: ‘I’m so proud that people get to see it in this documentary and I couldn’t be more grateful that I had someone by my side’
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